Cold Feet

Today we were on the beach laughing with the kids. The boys waded through the water. Sadie caught jellyfish in her net. We were having the best time. The family next to us had a little boy who played with our boys some.

They shared toys and shovels and played. A woman from their group approached me and said that they were gathering around a family member who was hurting. The woman’s niece was supposed to get married today, but her fiance broke it off 11 days before their $50,000, 350 guest, wedding. She was devastated.

I told her I would pray for her and that her niece was beautiful and I knew in my heart that she would be ok. We agreed that it was better to happen before a wedding and not after. As we parted ways, I watched my husband walk ahead. Three little heads bobbled behind him and he was carrying basically everything we owned back to the car.

Peter 4:8

Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.

Our marriage is not perfect. We are two imperfect, sinful people. We can be selfish and judgmental. We can be bitter and resentful. No matter what we are, we always seem to get to the other side. Maybe it is because we believe in our vows. Maybe it is because we are both stubborn. I don’t know what it is, but it works even when I swear there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Trust me, I have nearly given up, but something keeps us still.

Ephesians 5:33

However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.

My husband breaks my heart like no one else in this world can. He makes me mad in a way no one else can. He holds my hand like no one else can. He encourages me and adores me like no one else can. He is my person. He was always my person. I think about how much we both take for granted.

He works hard, he handles a lot of carpool, he shows up to every game. At night, he even let’s me use the bare-skinned body heat of his legs to warm my feet up when they’re like ice cubes and never complains. He listens to my stories. He loves my son. He shares his children, his family, his everything. I guess I rarely ever think about everything he gives.

Genesis 2:18

Then the Lord God said, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him.”

I never thought that I took my wedding day for granted, but I most certainly did. It’s this traditional thing that everyone gets, right? Wrong. Our wedding day was nothing short of magical, stress and all. It was perfect. My heart just broke for this young lady and I prayed so much blessing on her heart and her future husband. We are so fortunate to share the covenant of marriage. I plan to remember that even when he is in the dog house.

Ephesians 4:9-12

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie together, they keep warm, but how can one keep warm alone? And though a man might prevail against one who is alone, two will withstand him—a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

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